Sweet Reverie

The past is always a great support in times of trouble if you are willing to let it be. This is something I have always known, and believed with all my heart. I definitely think that those who do not learn from the past truly are doomed to repeat it, and I have had shades of that doom in my own life lately, despite my respect for this concept. I am fighting hard against it, and, so far, I feel like I am winning.

But that is not what what is on my mind most the past few days. The past week or so, I think I have finally really reconnected with a fixture in my past life that kept me more balanced than any other influence has since then. Through a series of events and unusual circumstances, some of them my fault, and some of them not, I somehow walked away. My life was going in a different direction, not only from the way that I had seen it, but also away from a lot of the people and things that made up my surroundings for so many years. Things change, and people do too, so it is surprising to me that after such a long period of time that things can still fit together so well. It makes me incredibly happy to know that I haven't lost it.


I remember so many things that have come to me over the years, and yet, still, the parts of the picture that burn the brightest remind me of certain people, some nearly forgotten, but there, in my memory. I love the fact that my life is rarely the same from day to day, and I think the monotony of a life where things are the same would kill me. Still though, I cherish, more now that I have nearly lost one, the people in my life who help me define myself even as myself changes. It is important not to lose sight of those people when things are going well, because they will be the ones there to enjoy it with you. Also, they will be the ones who are there to care for you when things aren't going so well.

Some things and people we just know will be a part of our lives forever, and its so scary to think that maybe, because of something we did or didn't do, that these great highlights can be erased, and fade into the past like a hillside greying with the approach of Autumn. If there is one thing I have learned in my "adult" life, it is that we must recognise the things in our life that make us who we are, and consciously hold onto that identity with whatever we can. These are the things and the people that happen to us because we need them to, and they will always fit with the new things and people.