I feel dead... I came to work at 4 AM, and I am still sitting here as I type this... ugh.

Adolfo and I got into a conversation last night (at 10 PM when I really should have been sleeping in preparation for my alarm to go off at 3 AM!!!) about our future as working people. Will we always go to bed at night thinking "I don't want to go to work tomorrow!!"? Or is it just that things are very uncertain in our professional lives right now, and that is throwing a shadow over everything that we are doing?

I think the way that I feel about my job right now has a lot to do with what our corporate spin-doctors call our "work-life balance". They always talk about all the great things they do to help us maintain a relatively even balance. Even our former president here in Owego once told Adolfo not to let the job be who he is. But what choice do we have? I worked a 14 hour day today!!! 14 hours! What do you think I'm going to do when I get home tonight? I'm going to sit on my a** and feel exhausted. There is no balance there. And the reality of the situation is this: At least for right now, if I didn't do these things, they would not happen. I have no backup, and if I fall down, parts of this program would come crashing down with me. Job security, yes. But what a stressful way to get it...

And to think, these are the job we go to college to have, the jobs we hope we can be good enough to get. What an ugly welcome to real life, huh?

To everyone I know who is following their bliss, go for it! If its not making you happy, it is SO not worth it.

Off to bond with my couch...